dear lord,

dear lord,

this tiny little heart, i admit can't be broken easily but once it is broken, it takes billions of years to mend it.  lately u've been giving me lots of test but those test are just too hard for me to handle.  it all relates with my feelings and emotion towards one another.  only u know the pain that i've been through all this while and only u know how much things i've been keeping it to myself alone.  only u know how i feel and how i hope to cope with everything.  it's painful dear lord, it is.  Im begging u to stop giving me hope that one day i'll meet my mr right.  stop making me feel guilty and useless all the time, dear lord.  everybody dreams to be in love.  so do i but if it takes such a big heart with a huge spirit to be in love, i can't do it because im not capable of doing it so.  so i'll stop having feelings towards anyone that i like.  i'll try to move on by my own.  enough is enough.  i dont want it anymore.  it hurts too much.